New Blog

I have been incredibly depressed the last couple months. While I have chalked it up to the horribly gray, snowy weather this year and to the tremendous stress Brent's development has placed on both of us and our finances, I'm afraid there may be more to it. I've always thought of myself as a fairly happy, positive person, and even through hard times like now I've still always maintained that I have joy in my life. And so I was shocked when Brent revealed last night, as we were debating whether I have joy, that "happy" is not a word that anyone who really knows me would use to describe me, and that "there's no joy emanating from me," and hasn't been for years. That was maybe the saddest, most heartbreaking thing I have ever heard. Certainly not what I would want people's perception of me to be, especially not my sweet children. So, as my wise mother suggested as a way to cure my depression, I am rededicating myself to reading the scriptures daily. I have to admit, it is a very hard thing for me to do. So to help me, I am creating a new blog that will just be for spiritual things. I have always wanted to write a book about spiritual things and have decided on a topic or two here and there that I have thought might be good, but for now a whole book is much too much to think about or attempt. But this morning I realized a blog post might not be. And it would give my scripture study a goal, which would make it much more meaningful to me. If you would like to read that blog you can find it at http://givebeautyforashes.blogspot.com/